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My cousin arrived here in Davao yesterday. He’s 21 and a month older than me. So he’s my kuya. Last night, we had a cheer dance competition at our school. And as usual, our cheer dance number s*cks. heheh..

It had been 2 days since we(me and Carlos) last talked. I miss him desperately. uggh.. I wonder what happened to him. He’s probably busy on his work. Wish he would at least call me…  i hate this.

I know, I know. Talking about love is a cliche. But I don’t really care because this is my blog. I’m slowly falling for Carlos. He doesn’t know this blog exists so thankfully he wouldn’t be able to read this.

I’m just so scared because what if I get hurt again? But I guess its better to risk it than not loving again. Uggh.. so corny!

Yesterday, we had a parade which was really really tiring. We walked from Addu Jacinto to Addu Matina. But I didn’t walked all the way. We rode Earl’s pickup.

I was watching the volleyball team (CS) and then I saw my cutie crush. He was actually playing too. And I was staring at him the whole time. Then he stumbled when he tried to get the ball. But when he stood up.. I was so shocked. He moved not the way a man is suppose to move. He is gay. And I was literally stunned. Why do cute guys right now are either unavailable or gay.

Anyways.. I have to tell you a weirdly personal thing because I can’t contain it anymore. I have this chatmate and he’s from Australia. And I super like him. And worse, I might be falling for him. He is asking me to marry him. What should I do? He’s nice and everything. I do like him a lot. I’ve been thinking about him the whole night. I think I’m going to marry him. I do like him a lot and I won’t let any girl take him away from me. If he comes to my country, then we’ll see…

2 of my uncles died because of muslim christian conflicts in Mindanao. And now, MILF people wants to take over Zamboanga, My birthplace. It’s scary. How could we trust terrorists as our leaders. They are responsible for several bombings in Mindanao. I think it would be effin cool to be separated from Manila.. Only if Duterte would be the governor.. At least..

Actually, territorial problem is not the issue. But poverty. You should have noticed that the poorest people in the Philippines live in ARMM. And now, because they are jealous with the wealth of other cities they want to steal lands. It’s sick!